Live on as much as we could

Well... I've been addicted to anime for quite long. In fact I've been watching anime ever since I graduated from poly. Nothing better to do after that so, I picked up anime. I'm watching clannad after story now. I've thought that anime is light story but it is the first anime that I lost my tears most. I'm not sure how many episodes have made me cried. Very touching. Some might not find it is but I do. At first I'm lost in storyline. Because I can't catch what the clannad is trying to deliver. I just go with the flow without any offend. But the clannd after story is even better than clannd and I've known what the anime is about. I'm quite slow, huh (^_^;) It is all about friendship, family bond and of course romance. I enjoy the anime.
Before clannad, I addicted with phantom: requiem for the phantom. This is really a nice show too. I like most of the anime I've watched. Probably because if the anime is not entertaining me, I might stop watching it or I'm just too easy to be pleased. Anyway phantom is really cool. My first ever mafia anime. I really love it. I cried when Cal died. (T.T) She was so cute when she was young.
I just have an idea to list out my 2010 anime. See, 2010 is going to be an end. 

1. Detective Conan Movies (1-14)
2. RomeoxJuliet
3. K-on!
4. K-on!!
5. Baka to test to Shoukanjuu
6. To love ru
7. Angel beats!
8. Kaichou wa Maid sama
9. Phantom: Requiem for the phantom 
10. Ef:a tale of memories
11. Clannad
12. Clannad after story

One of my colleagues aka a lecturer asked me what have I picked up during past few months. It made my mind come to halt. What have I learnt? It was a good question. It seemed like she knows how I feel all the time. She's great. So, I give myself a task to organize what I have learnt. Here is the list.

1. Firstly, of course it is as my post, I have learnt how to create mold. I've no basic skill about it at all. So, here I am now, able to create mold at least. 
2. Basic knowledge about Moldflow. I can simulate it out quite well. I wasn't given any sophisticated product and I have no idea what the outcome would be if I were to be given that. 
3. My UG skill improved!!! This is the most important skill I should have picked up. I was able to handle modeling during Poly time. With a complicated model I've drawn in past months, I suppose I learnt a few approaches.
4. Become more familiar with MS office - word, excel, powerpoint. By helping out lecturer with their works, I know deeply about MS office. 
5. Basic knowledge about sharepoint. I helped software lab to do a webpage, perhaps it's time for me to learn new skill afterall. Yes, I created a sub page by using sharepoint. I suppose I'm going to learn about dreamweaver very soon.
6. Apart from learning all these new skills, I was involved in organizing a competition for secondary schools. Which might as well helped me to improve in time management and beforehand preparation skill.
7. Hehe :-D-|-- I did pick up new language, Japanese! Working whole day  made me worn out. I started watching anime after work which makes me urge to learn Japanese language. Yes, I'm able understand basic Japanese speaking and able to read kana and some kanji. I'm still learning in progress. I guess I will improve a lot by next year.
8. Last but not least, I picked up how to swim and play pool with staff facilities. Haha :) basically it is more to enjoy myself. 

Woot... I'm able to list down eight. So what next. I'm still left with 8 months to go. 4months for 8. Probably, I will be able to list down 16 after next 8months. Who knows! 

The more I'm afraid to lose someone, the more I'm afraid of tomorrows. If you asked me if I'm afraid to die. I'll answer I'm more afraid to lose someone. I've not lost anyone but I've been started to afraid now as I grow old. I have soft heart even though I have rough figure. People might laugh at me if I said that. I don't want to think something that is yet to come. But it slips into my mind sometimes. I know the present is a Present. I should treasure it, I couldn't afford to have any regret that can't be amended. Well said, enjoy today.  

I have gain an experience yet an achievement yesterday. Erm.... I could not say achievement because it is really a simple job. That is I saved a electric fan yesterday!!! The switch of the fan has been spoiled. The spring and the iron stick for switch have gone missing. Even if they were found, I might not know how to fix them back. So, what I did is just to make fan works when the main power switch on. At first I've thought to connect two iron link in the switch by copper plate. I've tried to solder them but they just resist to stick together. I've tried so hard till one of the link have melt because of the high temperature. How stupid of me. The more I tried to repair, the worst it has turned out. That left me with no choice and I thought to join the wires instead. I've been too afraid to join wires as it might turn out to have short circuit. Anyway, I've joined two wires and hit the power switch with fear. TaDa... the fan is working again. I wrap the exposed wires with insulating tape and assemble everything back. Well... I've done curing a fan!!! It took me 2 hours to solder the copper while joining two wires took me 15 min to do so. I am not good at soldering and I am not fancy about it either. But the experience will teach me to become expert in soldering, won't it? I just need to repair more.
While I was living with my family, I did very little repairing. Probably I have no chance as I was busy with my friends most of the time. But I really like to dismantle and assemble them back since I was young. If I have a set of screws, I feel it is cool. For once I had dismantled a video player which I didn't know how to assemble back and my Pa has to send them to service center. He said I was destroying them. I just wanted to know what was inside, can't I? This was kind of fun. Since then he quoted me that "Whenever you want something to end up spoiled, just pass it to Mie Mie (this is my nickname). I'm sure you can't use that anymore". Well, he was kind of true. Whenever I tried to repair, it would turned out even worse. Despite of that there are numbers of thing I've saved. Probably just luck. I love DIY.
Since I stayed with my aunt's family to study. I've repaired more. Door bell, light bulb, clock, electric fan etc. My aunt's father in law is kind of mechanic. I've got skill from him, I guess. When he went back to US, he left be his tool boxes. Gosh! Why not his son, my aunt's husband? No way, he knows little thing about DIY. But with this load of tools and load of choices are really cool. But since then, the whole family depends on me. Even very little error, they would said "Ask Mie Mie to repair". Yup, I'm their mechanic. But I'm not a pro or expert. There are limited thing that I could do. But I will pick up those experience till I achieve something very big. Well.. keep going, huh. =)

I'm a Buddhist and from Buddhist country. I've learnt that being a human isn't easy. Only if you did good thing in past life. But being a normal living person will be luckier. Despite of their lucky life, some people just can't appreciate it. Why bother to trouble own self. Consume drug, coke?? They feel like heaven?? What a shame. They might feel like heaven while they r consuming that. But they didn't realise that the drug or coke are consuming them. Why bother to murder?? You might fill with hatred. But think about it... If you love your own life, so the other. But something bothering me. I've killed lots of insects. If those are to be counted as murder, I am a murderer. Well, according to Buddha said, we must appreciate the other living thing as well. I can't deny it. I've killed mostly mosquito during my stay in Myanmar. I live in suburb area and the neighboring isn't healthily built. We pay tax for town counsel, but it doesn't seem caring for the town. Anyway, my point is I have to kill lots of mosquito to have my sound sleep. I spray mosquito killer to my room and lock it up for about 3 hours. When the strong smell left the room, I can see the mosquitoes are dying. I'm not glad, I give my condolence. I've done this to protect my own life. It sounds selfish but can't be help. We consume meat to survive ourselves. I'm not  holy, I can't be vegetarian. Because I can't stand the strong smell given by veggie and they are bitter too. Some said animals have low life than human and so they get our bully. I wish they will have better lives in future.
So how about human to human? Rich to poor, beauty to ugly, healthy to disable. We are the same, you see. We are human being. We born alone and so will die alone. Of course during these period, you want to have as many accompany as possible. I love to be being loved, who doesn't? If you ask me " Are you ready to die?". I will answer "No, not yet". I just turned 20 this year. Well, the great credit go to my parents who bring me up till now. What I have done during these 20 years is study. I have not contributed anything to pay back my parents.So not yet, I can't be dead. I want a very peaceful family without any other interference. This is my big dream to come true. I am trying my own best.
I love to live too. When I open my eyes and I smell of myself, I feel great. There's a saying - " You can't live 1000 years but you can face 1000 problems". Encounter problems are part of human being too. If not the life will be just very boring. If you fall, look up the blue sky. It's beautiful, you are still living in the beautiful earth. As long as we live, we can overcome the problem one day. Just don't commit suicide. It is definitely not the solution. Fight till the end, no matter what it takes.
I have a friend, my best friend. She is weak, her sight is poor. I will try my best not to lose my good eye sight because I'll read for her if she can't see. If she is sick, I'll try my best to maintain my good health so that I could take care of her. What are friends for? To help each other, isn't it? This might apply vice versa. I'm not a perfect healthy human being. I might fall sick one day, won't I?

 
 I love my family, my friends, and many more. :D
Pretty great inspired by Ichi rittoru no namida.

You might think that I'm home sick. I might or might not, but surely not serious. It's just that a thought flows through my  mind. Well, I am far away from home. When I think back... why did I leave in the first place. Ya, one answer... for our brighter future. If I chose to live at home and educated from there, I won't be able to depend my academic as living. The pay is low while the expenses are high. I might as well follow my parents' footsteps. Let me show my gratitude towards my parents. They work very hard for us. We really appreciate that. They work days and nights to earn for living, it isn't easy. So, if our country was safe, developed and peaceful, we wouldn't need to go abroad to seek our future. The geometry said that Myanmar is resourceful and rich country. But why are we so poor? Where did the money go? Nobody could answer that neither do I. I love my country. In fact, I love my country during day time. The very first wish for my country to develop is to have 24/7 electricity all over the country. Really do. Eventually follow by convenient transport, higher living standard and open economy. It won't happen over night. But I wanna see that in near future.

I have no idea how dreams work. A dream is a succession of images, sounds or emotions that the mind experiences during sleep. The content and purpose of dreams are not fully understood, though they have been a topic of speculation and interest throughout recorded history. The scientific study of dreams is known as oneirology.(wiki)
My last night's dream seemed so real. I could feel it. My gosh! The real me, my real friends, my real teachers and the real scenario which could happen in the real world. Like I could have deja vu soon. *freak So, what was that? Some say you dream of somebody if you think about them right before you sleep. But that's not it. Because I have encounter lots of dream of somebody who have been out of my mind for long. I guess that's not true.
How should I count that dream? A nightmare? or A sweet dream? I don't know. But it definitely reminded me of home. I miss my family and friends :)

My idol has posted something on her FB. "What and if are two words as non-threatening as words can be, but together side-by-side, they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if". Yup, I strongly agreed with this quotation. Besides that another word with the same meaning is If only. I wish I was not to say these words, never. But which human being has no regret? Eventually, people wish not to have regrets but yet these are bound to be.
I have lots of What if. What if I had study hard in high school and I'd not have to go abroad. Probably I have no regret in going abroad as I will have no future staying at home. What if I had study hard in Poly and I would probably be at university now. Erm... well, I guess they are all fate. Determined fate. I only wish not to have regret regarding to my family. I love my family :D 

Most might watch this anime years ago. I watch it last Thursday. I use two nights and half day to finish 24 episodes. (I was working on Thursday and picnic on Friday, carry on to Saturday and end it :D) I prefer this ending. I dun want to insult Sir William. I know his play was such a success and still it is. Having said that I dun like suicide acts. Rather than committing suicide to follow their love one, I prefer to be dead while fighting for their love. In RomeoXJuliet, Juliet has to sacrifice her life to save the whole world but refuse to die without Romeo. Romeo died while trying to save Juliet from the witch. When Juliet woke up, she saw Romeo with last breath and died in her hands. ("Romeo, call my name again" oh,.. I'm welling up '_') Her love was dead and she has to save the world. Without regrets, she decided to become a escalus tree and perished with Romeo. Now, Romeo and Juliet are united forever. (On this morn, we promise to share joy and sorrow for all the rest of our days. For all our life and until death, together shall we be, henceforth till the end of eternity.)

 

Let me share about myself. Yup, I'm Riley and current location is Singapore. I can be easy going but I'm kinda hot-tempered. Even thou I like to make friends, I just dunno how to approach. I need sometime to click with one to adapt myself into it. It just sounds like I am a nerd!!! In fact, it as well depends on my mood. There were times I just mixed like I've know him/her since I was a child. Well, I do not know... Probably, some kinda personalities???

There's one quote lingering around my tongue. "Life is limited so that people will try their best to live on and make memories along this precious life". I dun care about whether contribute for this globe or just being a jerk in this universe. I just couldn't agreed with those committed suicide. I might understand their feeling of escaping their troubles. But they gotta know that these ain't solutions. They could be escaped by death, how about after death? Shouldn't they care about their family, love ones who will suffer? This is utter selfish. Well, I'm just sharing my point of view. I did not say I am fully right or gotta agreed with me. So, dun be silly, live on as much as we could :)

This is my first time blogging. People started using blog for long time and I'm aware of the existence. The thing is I just can't buy time to write blog or perhaps, I'm too lazy to blog. But now, I have some interest in writing and started this blogging. It's pretty new to me and I'm like a village girl on the orchard road. Well, getting started.