Dejavu

It hit me again. I can almost control my emotion until he apologised. That's so shit about me. I'm better this time round. I can tell myself not to get frustrated over it for which I'm successful. I anticipated that will happen and it did today. I always blame myself whenever it happens. And he always get melt down for it. I did not intentionally do it. Whenever such thing gonna happen, i'm already depressed of my deficiency. So when it happens, I just pour over. That's pretty bad.