I've been working at Senoko for 10 weeks. There were good days and as well doom days. I enjoy exploring and as well stressed. Woking at site surely not a thing for a girl. I dun feel anything wrong. Strange enough not to feel afraid too. I exposed too much that I saw different kinds of people, playing politics, slacking, cheating and even lied thru their teeth. 20 Oct. I'll never forget. I said something bluntly to superior and 'boom' I got backfire. 21 Oct, I cried for hours and I made a man shed tear too. What a day! Such a change! I promise, if I have time, I'll share my stories here. Miss you, blogger.
Hard time
These days are like hell. I'm very stressful, hurt, tired in both emotionally and physically. I was really tired after the consequent interviews for my career transit. My hope was lit up at that time. Hoping so hard that one of the company might want me. Some of the interviewers even convinced me about that. Am a I a fool? It's been a week! I've not received any call or email. Hope differed makes the heart sick for sure. Damn!
To make matters worse, my best friend quarreled with me, very seriously. "Why?", asked myself. We've known each other for eight years and it shouldn't be happening. I know that we are country apart and it causes us to lose faith each other. The problem started from me. I forgot to call her. I have very short term memory, it's a side note. That morning, I was having a presentation to directors and juniors. I was really nervous. I spent
whole day to rehearse and it slipped through my mind. After a long day, I was playing game and waiting for her to be online so that we can chat through Skype. Well, she was angry. She told me she was like a fool waiting for my call. I apologized, it's all my fault anyway. But she kept saying she was like a fool and refused to talk to me. It was mid night at that time and my eyes' lids weighted a ton. I was tired after all.
The sleepier I am, the angrier I will be. So, the tone of my words had anger which she was aware. Then she called me. Too bad that my mind was blank from being too angry. I dun remember what I told her. I'm sure they weren't any good. The first thing I learnt that there is a need for me to apologize her. I did that and she said "it's fine". I had appointment with my high school classmates and so I dun really care much and had fun. The problem was still lingering at the back of my head. But I told myself that it was over. She told me she was fine.
No, it was not. The next day when I saw her online and she told me she was afraid of me. Well, it was what-the-hell effect. I thought it was all over but it started again. We discussed so and so and I was angry again. I cried, punched the floor and shouted like a crazy. Please, give me a break. That weekend supposed to be a break for me. We both hurt, tired. We lost our mutual understanding. The problem was really over when she called me happily at night. I kept silent frequently and afraid that I would say something bad again. I dunno... I was really confused. I'm still hurt. I'm still afraid to talk to her. Perhaps we both were having hard time and just blew each other. Hopefully, we will patch up soon.
Please, give me some good luck.
Bygones be bygones
It's been long time I last blogged. I was busy emailing to my BFF. My daily report will be more accurate. Not like others, we don't know each other. We titled BFF first then we start to explore each other. Well... funny, huh. Anyway, I love her as much as she loves me. Dun get us wrong, we ain't les.
There were too much talk during lunch. I am always listener. The thing is I always have to rush them back to work. Gosh~ being a villian during lunch time. It can't be help. I dun wanna take advantage.
I made a small matter to big fuss yesterday. I still couldn't forgive myself for that. May all bad luck be gone soon.
For my good sake
Back from home. But missing home already. Having said that time is limited. But I've done lots. No regrets. I was happy to be home and heart breaking to leave. Gosh... I've made a promise to myself for this time... I will settle down in Myanmar no matter what. I'll work harder from today onwards for the day my love ones can be together. I love to be home...
Home sweet home2011
I'm going back home anytime soon. I'm very excited about that. But some of troubles awaiting me too. I need to focus and not let myself free. I gotta be focus in what I'm doing. But I'll be frank that I'm looking forward to be home. There are so many thing I want to do. The time is limited you see. So, I gotta be done within these days. I can do it. Since it is a bit late, I can't write so long. I'm so going to bed. *yawn
Hobby?
Farewell (^_^)/
I just had a farewell party organised by me and two other colleagues. The party ended great. We have a "Good Luck" wishes to soon-going-to-be-ex-colleagues. Alright, writing wishes is my idea. I thought of that cos its within budget too. He was so great when he was student and staff. He really is a serious person who would do everything seriously. Even his GPA is perfect 4. God, I'm really worship him and envy. I couldn't do that. Hmmm.. there's no point looking back. Just picked up from this party, he is the eldest and so our mentor said he looks like the eldest as well. I don't whether it was reluctant to ask to her that do I look like the eldest, too. She replied me that I rather look like the only child than the eldest. And yup, it was like an arrow piercing my heart. I'm the eldest and always proud to be eldest, and always wanted to look like an eldest. And then she explained that I hold responsible for work and work seriously but I look rather cute. It was another arrow. I know the meaning of "cute". Cute = Chubby. It's time to loose some weight now. I dun care much about my look. As long as neat and clean is really good enough for me. I can't just take some compliment, could I? Probably it is stupid of me to start with. Hmmm... perhaps I shouldn't have asked. Others might think "Oh, she wanna be named as cute and so she asked". I dun want that. I dun want other to think negatively of me. Who does?
Right, it's okay. I'm good. Perhaps, I shouldn't think too much. Farewell, Nam... Wish you life of happiness and prosperity not to mention Good Luck!
Haypi Kingdom
I started to play Haypi Kingdom three days ago on my iPhone. It is a tactic game and I have chance to interact with people all around the world which is great. When I was a newbie, they helped me with that. I am still a newbie but just upgraded to 1st civilian. I'm trying hard to be able to upgrade to 3rd baron. I'm in the top 1 alliance which is "DamNation" in Sever 42. I purposely join the top one so that I can push myself. They eliminate those with low prestige. If I dun wanna be eliminated, I gotta push myself hard. At the mean time, I think why not i create myself a alliance. No, I have no time. I dun want to waste all my free time on this game. ya... this is just a game. No way going serious.
Memories
Ok, back to the PRESENT. Where was I… erm, yup. We were having dinner and talking about how I was nervous that time. I can laugh out about it now. I'm so embarrassed. We realized that our group is much more unite than this year group. We have very little man power yet we tried our very best, cooperating. I don't much about this year group as I don't visit my old lab that often. I heard all that from my partner (now advisor). She complained pretty much. I hope NYP will score lots of medals this year again.
http://www.nyp.edu.sg/SEG/seg_achievements_roboticsgames.html
Happy 2011
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