Live on as much as we could

Today is last day of P2.1 project. We surfer so much for past 5 weeks and I will say it is a success. We started discretely for the very first week and realised that this task will not be accomplished by doing alone. So, I allied with one my good friends and we started to work together. I thought we could have all our countrymen working unitedly. Sad to say that the other two showing signs of waiting our jobs to be done and take the credits. We are not idiot, you see. And I strongly detest such kind! We walked away. Not offending them. I got into some extent to reply some nasty comment on him who asked for our great effort. I've already written down and ready to bomb down. But at the end of the day, I don't wish to have any enemy yet. And discipline myself that this matter is trivia. I have much better things to do than blowing the matter. He is smart enough not to push too hard too. Well, after counting numbers, I retreat myself and not to meddle with him. I think I made a right choice.
After putting effort, frustration an all that, as of today, it has come to end. It absolutely taught us to be independent. and freedom. I might not experience such project again but I will have to maintain myself for such altitude.
My hard work paid off actually. My report is selected to be the best structure design and well organised report. Well... I just dressed it up a bit. I slept at 3 in the morning to get this done! Of course I learnt tens of new things from this project. I did try my best. I don't care others' best. As long as I tried my best and it's get recognised, I feel really pleased.

I've already shared what we should set as reference. Asking our report is a little too daring, don't you think so? Why not you complete ahead of us and let yours be our reference? P.S. Everybody knows how to write intro which easily can be gotten from lab sheet.

I've been working at Senoko for 10 weeks. There were good days and as well doom days. I enjoy exploring and as well stressed. Woking at site surely not a thing for a girl. I dun feel anything wrong. Strange enough not to feel afraid too. I exposed too much that I saw different kinds of people, playing politics, slacking, cheating and even lied thru their teeth. 20 Oct. I'll never forget. I said something bluntly to superior and 'boom' I got backfire. 21 Oct, I cried for hours and I made a man shed tear too. What a day! Such a change! I promise, if I have time, I'll share my stories here. Miss you, blogger.

These days are like hell. I'm very stressful, hurt, tired in both emotionally and physically. I was really tired after the consequent interviews for my career transit. My hope was lit up at that time. Hoping so hard that one of the company might want me. Some of the interviewers even convinced me about that. Am a I a fool? It's been a week! I've not received any call or email. Hope differed makes the heart sick for sure. Damn!

To make matters worse, my best friend quarreled with me, very seriously. "Why?", asked myself. We've known each other for eight years and it shouldn't be happening. I know that we are country apart and it causes us to lose faith each other. The problem started from me. I forgot to call her. I have very short term memory, it's a side note. That morning, I was having a presentation to directors and juniors. I was really nervous. I spent
whole day to rehearse and it slipped through my mind. After a long day, I was playing game and waiting for her to be online so that we can chat through Skype. Well, she was angry. She told me she was like a fool waiting for my call. I apologized, it's all my fault anyway. But she kept saying she was like a fool and refused to talk to me. It was mid night at that time and my eyes' lids weighted a ton. I was tired after all.

The sleepier I am, the angrier I will be. So, the tone of my words had anger which she was aware. Then she called me. Too bad that my mind was blank from being too angry. I dun remember what I told her. I'm sure they weren't any good. The first thing I learnt that there is a need for me to apologize her. I did that and she said "it's fine". I had appointment with my high school classmates and so I dun really care much and had fun. The problem was still lingering at the back of my head. But I told myself that it was over. She told me she was fine.

No, it was not. The next day when I saw her online and she told me she was afraid of me. Well, it was what-the-hell effect. I thought it was all over but it started again. We discussed so and so and I was angry again. I cried, punched the floor and shouted like a crazy. Please, give me a break. That weekend supposed to be a break for me. We both hurt, tired. We lost our mutual understanding. The problem was really over when she called me happily at night. I kept silent frequently and afraid that I would say something bad again. I dunno... I was really confused. I'm still hurt. I'm still afraid to talk to her. Perhaps we both were having hard time and just blew each other. Hopefully, we will patch up soon.

Please, give me some good luck.

It's been long time I last blogged. I was busy emailing to my BFF. My daily report will be more accurate. Not like others, we don't know each other. We titled BFF first then we start to explore each other. Well... funny, huh. Anyway, I love her as much as she loves me. Dun get us wrong, we ain't les.
There were too much talk during lunch. I am always listener. The thing is I always have to rush them back to work. Gosh~ being a villian during lunch time. It can't be help. I dun wanna take advantage.
I made a small matter to big fuss yesterday. I still couldn't forgive myself for that. May all bad luck be gone soon.

Back from home. But missing home already. Having said that time is limited. But I've done lots. No regrets. I was happy to be home and heart breaking to leave. Gosh... I've made a promise to myself for this time... I will settle down in Myanmar no matter what. I'll work harder from today onwards for the day my love ones can be together. I love to be home...

I'm going back home anytime soon. I'm very excited about that. But some of troubles awaiting me too. I need to focus and not let myself free. I gotta be focus in what I'm doing. But I'll be frank that I'm looking forward to be home. There are so many thing I want to do. The time is limited you see. So, I gotta be done within these days. I can do it. Since it is a bit late, I can't write so long. I'm so going to bed. *yawn