From my religion, it is greatest sin. I, myself could feel the bad side of it. I'm already burning inside. No matter how hard I tried to tell myself that it's not gonna affect me so much, it actually eat on me. The mix feeling, I'm angry and sad. Couldn't explain well what's happening. Perhaps, like one saying, if one couldn't explain a thing, one has not truly understand it. So, I dun understand it quite well yet? I'm sure... I'm jealous.
Should I not? At least I shouldn't be possessive. It won't bring any good to anybody. I should lay low... Yeah... Lay low. We are taught to care and share each other in this society, aren't we? I wi treat as I'm sharing with someone who needs it as badly as me. Gorgeous... I want to end all this. I'm certainly not ok and far away from Nirvana....
